After my third child, I went into Post Natal Depression. Wow. I had never heard of such a thing. For at least six months I hid it from everyone and battled on on my own – in ignorance – in eternal panic and fear. Eventually, I had a suicidal thought. Not just for me – but for taking my three children with me. This one thought, gave me such a fright, I went to the family doctor and wept, and wept, and wept.
Then I found out from him, that I was NOT a freak, that “Post Natal Depression” was a recognised condition. That other people experienced it too.
That didn’t make it go away. But then I knew what was happening. So I took the pills he prescribed – Valium – at the beginning.
And I found Dr Claire Weeks books. The one that was especially helpful was called Agoraphobia. There was no Internet then, only Libraries. So until now, I have never seen Dr Weekes, or heard her talk.
Those were the days when you “pulled yourself together” and her ideas were something new. This concept of understanding your symptoms and the idea of sensitization unlocked the beginning of my healing process.
I thought of her as a result of a comment on yesterday’s post. I have had a wonderful time surfing the net and rediscovering my old friend. Her ideas are still valid today in our age of “scientific sophistication”, psychiatrists, physiologists and Mental Health. And no – I never became addicted to Valium!